I'm A Broken Vessel

I am a Broken Vessel. I surrender, I am powerless and I can no longer carry this burden alone. I have just spent the past four nights watching my husband perforn in the passion play at my church. This was truely a life changing experience for me.

As I watched my Savior suffer and die on the cross, I became so overwhelmed with emotion, it was almost unbearable. I have never felt such sorrow. I felt so ashamed of myself, as I have done so little compared to what my Savior has done to me. I began to think about my body and the way I have taken it for granted - the way I have abused it with food. My guilt was overwhelming.

During the intermission of today's performance, the video I'm A Broken Vessel was played. Here are the lyrics to the song.


“I’m a Broken Vessel, In Need of You” David Oldfield, Potter’s House Church of God

Lord, I’ve come to You With everything I am

Take me in Your hands And mold me into Your plan

I am willing and waiting To give You what You want from me

So Lord,lead me and guide me to the place I need to be

I’m a broken vessel in need of You

Purify my heart Make me white as the snow

I’m not worthy of Your grace Through Your love I’ll see Your face

I am willing and waiting To give You what You want from me

So Lord, lead me and guide me to the place I need to be

I’m a broken vessel in need of You

Take my hand in Yours, oh Lord And You wash me with Your blood, yeah

And You be glorified in me,

oh And You open my eyes to see

I am willing and waiting To give You what You want from me

So Lord, lead me and guide me to the place I need to be

I’m a broken vessel in need of You In need of You

I’m a broken vessel, In need of You

I have somehow gained seven pounds in the past 5 days - I can no longer do this alone. I have been stubborn and prideful and felt that I had the power to do this - I was wrong. I am willing and waiting and will give God what he wants from me so that He will guide me to the place I need to be.

As a health coach, I am ashamed of myself for not leading a better example for my wonderful acceptance clients - I feel so unworthy. I am tired of gaining and losing, tired of being tired, tired of fighting this battle alone. I am surrendering this weight to God and will follow and listen to Him as He leads me through this journey. As I am writing this, I feel a sense of hope, a sense of peace that I can and that I will see this through. I am going to restore my body to the amazing temple that He created.